pills in the bottle.
pills in my head.
hand on the throttle.
a mind full of dread.
a heart full of hate.
a world full of lust.
fuck the clean slate.
there's nobody to trust.
fuck this society.
fuck those laws.
all this fucking anxiety.
i wanna break 'em, just cause.
prove it can be done.
prove you're man enough.
but, it can't be undone.
this'll get rough.
play somethin' now.
play somethin' new.
play somethin' loud.
play somethin', dude.
make it like you should;
make it exciting.
make it good,
make it biting.
let me hear those screams,
let me hear that hate.
let me hear your dreams,
let me decide your fate.
it could be mindless,
it could be an escape.
it could be full of bliss,
it could be full of hate.
it's my love.
it's my passion.
it's a place to push and shove.
it's something that shouldn't happen.
you think i'm losing my mind.
i know for a fact that i'm not.
i know for a fact, that i'm good.
or, maybe there's something i forgot.
this is no place to try and live my life.
this is no place to settle down.
this is a place for my strife.
this is a place to frown.
i'm ready to start this shit again.
i'm ready to try this over.
i'm ready to make amends.
i need to get sober.
i'm sorry for the person i became.
i'm sorry that i'm different.
i'm sorry it took so long for me to change.
i'm sorry, that's not what i meant.
Lalala.
Music to my ears.
Lalala.
Contribute to my fears.
Lalala.
Walk down the hall of mirrors.
Lalala.
Shut the fuck up, dears.
Lalala.
Hahaha.
Sounds echo down.
Hahaha.
No need to frown.
Hahaha.
Tip of the crown.
Hahaha.
It's a-comin' 'round.
Hahaha.
Hold tight;
you're still worth it.
Late night;
this room is dimly lit.
Keep sight;
none of these fit.
Look around;
what if i stole your heart?
Not a sound;
what if i ripped you apart?
That's profound;
that's just a start.
Never me;
never have i loved anyone as much as you.
Just maybe;
i secretly want to see you cry, so i push you until you do.
I'm free;
this is new.
Time speeds up when you're near,
and slows when you're gone.
When I see you, I never have to fear,
that to you, I am drawn.
There are some things that I've needed to say,
but couldn't find a way.
Because around you, my minds seems to drift away.
But I think I finally can, today.
You are so beautiful,
And you're the perfect girl,
For me.
You have my heart,
And I can't stand when we're apart,
Because you're the perfect girl,
For me.
I could sit here forever with you,
Just starring into your eyes.
If I could tell you how much I love you,
You'd think for sure I'm spouting lies.
I've wanted to say some things for a while,
But
one or the other?
this or that?
they're everywhere.
decisons, decisons.
nobody knows how to make them correctly.
and everyone gives the worse advice when it comes to it.
"follow your heart."
yeah? really?
my heart says you're an idiot.
you don't think with your heart.
you think with your mind.
your heart merely pumps blood everwhere.
it's incapable of making a decison.
especially if your mind can't.
there's no such thing as a "good choice."
because both things will have the good with the bad.
sure, the bad may outweigh the good, but either way.
choices in life are never straightforward, either.
they're either very obscure,
If you say the glass is half empty,
you must be sad.
If you say the glass is half full,
you must be happy.
Make sense?
Didn't think so.
If you say there is no god,
you must be an athiest.
If you say there is some higher power,
you must be religious.
Make sense?
Didn't think so.
If you say everything happens for a reason,
you believe your thoughts are being led.
If you believe we make our own paths in life,
you must think freely.
Make sense?
Didn't think so.
If you say people can govern themselves,
you must be an anarchist.
If you believe in government,
you must be political.
Make sense?
Didn't think so.
Opinions make
sometimes,
when life seems uninteresting,
you want to cause destruction.
you want to tear the world apart.
and this is normal.
sometimes,
when life seems unbearable,
you want to cause death,
you want to destroy all the bad.
and this is normal.
sometimes,
when life seems beautiful,
you want to cause more beauty.
you want to keep it this way.
and this is normal.
sometimes,
when life seems great,
you just want to destroy it.
you want to live in the bad.
and this is normal.
sometimes,
when everything seems fine,
you want to make a choice you know is wrong.
you want to cause destruction.
and this is normal.
sometimes,
i can't forget you.
i don't exactly want to, either.
sure, we had some bad times, but what friendship doesn't?
and hell, we sure as fuck had tons of amazing times.
all of those inside jokes.
there we so many;
remember how we lost count, trying to count them that one night?
i loved you, in more ways than one.
at first, i was in love with you.
then, i loved you as a sister, and that's how it stayed.
sure, i could sometimes picture us together, but we both know it wouldn't have lasted long at all.
i miss you. really.
i say i hate you.
i say you're not worth my time.
i say i talk to you, just to piss you off..
but truth be told, i
pills in the bottle.
pills in my head.
hand on the throttle.
a mind full of dread.
a heart full of hate.
a world full of lust.
fuck the clean slate.
there's nobody to trust.
fuck this society.
fuck those laws.
all this fucking anxiety.
i wanna break 'em, just cause.
prove it can be done.
prove you're man enough.
but, it can't be undone.
this'll get rough.
play somethin' now.
play somethin' new.
play somethin' loud.
play somethin', dude.
make it like you should;
make it exciting.
make it good,
make it biting.
let me hear those screams,
let me hear that hate.
let me hear your dreams,
let me decide your fate.
it could be mindless,
it could be an escape.
it could be full of bliss,
it could be full of hate.
it's my love.
it's my passion.
it's a place to push and shove.
it's something that shouldn't happen.
you think i'm losing my mind.
i know for a fact that i'm not.
i know for a fact, that i'm good.
or, maybe there's something i forgot.
this is no place to try and live my life.
this is no place to settle down.
this is a place for my strife.
this is a place to frown.
i'm ready to start this shit again.
i'm ready to try this over.
i'm ready to make amends.
i need to get sober.
i'm sorry for the person i became.
i'm sorry that i'm different.
i'm sorry it took so long for me to change.
i'm sorry, that's not what i meant.
Lalala.
Music to my ears.
Lalala.
Contribute to my fears.
Lalala.
Walk down the hall of mirrors.
Lalala.
Shut the fuck up, dears.
Lalala.
Hahaha.
Sounds echo down.
Hahaha.
No need to frown.
Hahaha.
Tip of the crown.
Hahaha.
It's a-comin' 'round.
Hahaha.
Hold tight;
you're still worth it.
Late night;
this room is dimly lit.
Keep sight;
none of these fit.
Look around;
what if i stole your heart?
Not a sound;
what if i ripped you apart?
That's profound;
that's just a start.
Never me;
never have i loved anyone as much as you.
Just maybe;
i secretly want to see you cry, so i push you until you do.
I'm free;
this is new.
Time speeds up when you're near,
and slows when you're gone.
When I see you, I never have to fear,
that to you, I am drawn.
There are some things that I've needed to say,
but couldn't find a way.
Because around you, my minds seems to drift away.
But I think I finally can, today.
You are so beautiful,
And you're the perfect girl,
For me.
You have my heart,
And I can't stand when we're apart,
Because you're the perfect girl,
For me.
I could sit here forever with you,
Just starring into your eyes.
If I could tell you how much I love you,
You'd think for sure I'm spouting lies.
I've wanted to say some things for a while,
But
one or the other?
this or that?
they're everywhere.
decisons, decisons.
nobody knows how to make them correctly.
and everyone gives the worse advice when it comes to it.
"follow your heart."
yeah? really?
my heart says you're an idiot.
you don't think with your heart.
you think with your mind.
your heart merely pumps blood everwhere.
it's incapable of making a decison.
especially if your mind can't.
there's no such thing as a "good choice."
because both things will have the good with the bad.
sure, the bad may outweigh the good, but either way.
choices in life are never straightforward, either.
they're either very obscure,
If you say the glass is half empty,
you must be sad.
If you say the glass is half full,
you must be happy.
Make sense?
Didn't think so.
If you say there is no god,
you must be an athiest.
If you say there is some higher power,
you must be religious.
Make sense?
Didn't think so.
If you say everything happens for a reason,
you believe your thoughts are being led.
If you believe we make our own paths in life,
you must think freely.
Make sense?
Didn't think so.
If you say people can govern themselves,
you must be an anarchist.
If you believe in government,
you must be political.
Make sense?
Didn't think so.
Opinions make
sometimes,
when life seems uninteresting,
you want to cause destruction.
you want to tear the world apart.
and this is normal.
sometimes,
when life seems unbearable,
you want to cause death,
you want to destroy all the bad.
and this is normal.
sometimes,
when life seems beautiful,
you want to cause more beauty.
you want to keep it this way.
and this is normal.
sometimes,
when life seems great,
you just want to destroy it.
you want to live in the bad.
and this is normal.
sometimes,
when everything seems fine,
you want to make a choice you know is wrong.
you want to cause destruction.
and this is normal.
sometimes,
i can't forget you.
i don't exactly want to, either.
sure, we had some bad times, but what friendship doesn't?
and hell, we sure as fuck had tons of amazing times.
all of those inside jokes.
there we so many;
remember how we lost count, trying to count them that one night?
i loved you, in more ways than one.
at first, i was in love with you.
then, i loved you as a sister, and that's how it stayed.
sure, i could sometimes picture us together, but we both know it wouldn't have lasted long at all.
i miss you. really.
i say i hate you.
i say you're not worth my time.
i say i talk to you, just to piss you off..
but truth be told, i
pills in the bottle.
pills in my head.
hand on the throttle.
a mind full of dread.
a heart full of hate.
a world full of lust.
fuck the clean slate.
there's nobody to trust.
fuck this society.
fuck those laws.
all this fucking anxiety.
i wanna break 'em, just cause.
prove it can be done.
prove you're man enough.
but, it can't be undone.
this'll get rough.
Current Residence: edmonton, alberta Favourite genre of music: hxc Favourite style of art: digital Operating System: Macintosh MP3 player of choice: Zune Favourite cartoon character: candlejack Personal Quote: "you know you love me"
so.
i haven't been on here in a long time.
xD
and you know, reading what i was like.. before christmas..
makes me sad.
D: i was a a loser.
still am.
xDDD
okay. so i'm going to montana 'til Thurs.
I'll write up some chapters of Split (finally decided on a name :]]!) during this time.
xDD I'll miss you all..
And fuck, I'll be missing all the new years eve parties..
>>; ihatemylife.
but oh well.
happy new year,
merry whateverelsethereis.
;D
kay so.
i'm gonna write a book.
and i got a pretty good idea on what it'll be about and such.
the general plot is that this character will have DID (Dissociative Indentity Disorder) also known as MPD (Multiple Personality Disorder). The idea I'm sorta playing with is that his personalities will be aware of each other, even though there has never been a documented case of this ever (but this is fiction. doens't have to be realistic. :3). So, basically, he could have conversations between his personalities.
One of his personalities (the dominant one.. thinking of the name Daniel for it.) will be peacefulish, sarcastic, witty, funny, and way